Breathed

Done

did it

I breathed again

finished final then

slipping quickly out the back door

it startled me

a real breathe

the most intense 9 months

the most rewarding 9 months

of my life thus far

(Why do those things go together?)

Done

did it

conclusion - complete, full, beautiful

let's sit in a field and feel the melody of the guitar

resonate deep down with that conclusion

breathe

Snake Bite

Bitten by a three toothed snake - Yes I'm that tough.

sights

Alas, I keep forgetting my camera and have little to show for these great adventures. Picture 1 is from the top of Mt. St. Regis, and two is from a park on Lake Ontario in Wolcott (Wookit). it's hard to tell but that's a good 40 foot drop from grass to rocks.

Pie Problem (Girls are like Pie)

Pie Problem

If I eat one more pie, i'll DIE!
If I can't have one more piece of pie, i'll DIE!
so since it's all decided I must have one more piece of pie.

Mmmm-Oooh-MY!

Chomp - Gulp - Bye.

-Shel Silverstein

So I wonder if this is analogy for girls. Can't live without them but you can't live with them either. Kind of a lose lose situation, or actually I guess sticking to my optimistic view on life in general it may actually be a win win, but either way life just seems more difficult with and without girls... :P

I think the analogy breaks down for the last two lines though. And just so people don't go reading things into this it wasn't inspired by anyone in particular. I think it's just an amusing expression of the general opinion of men (I hope this doesn't get me in trouble).

RIT

the mist rises

the morning sun flows in

the classical sound of violin peaks through

students waltz by in all manners

friends live out friendships

as it all begins to fade away

I will miss it all

Why

Here it is. I love music. I love expressing myself through it vocally and musically but it's always been with someone else's lyrics. I started working on this during Urbana '09 and it continued to develop as life went along up until this past week when I recorded it. It came out of a lot of frustration with sin. Not the sin like lying and murder, but the effects of sin that manifest in life being totally unfair. Everyone trying to do the right thing and hurting each other deeply in the process. I expect that in the world, but in the church? Christian to Christian? brother to brother? brother to sister? None of its right and it's all a confused mess. Everyone is hurting everyone. Here's the thing though, just because I don't understand what's going on or don't like what I see, just because I find myself mad at God doesn't change whether he exists or not. It doesn't change his character. He is still good. I still must live my life for him. God sees the world very differently than I do and all I can do is trust that he's making better decisions than I would make. Even the "undeserved" sicknesses, war, and starvation are the results of the fall, and while a lifetime of those things seems like forever, they are really only a drop next to the life after death. Obviously how I see different situations varies a lot over the course of 5 months. New things come up and other things fade so in the song we have some of those variations squeezed together in 5 minutes. In short, no I don't get it, yes I'm frustrated but there are things that I do know and I need to stand on those things even when I don't have the whole picture. I didn't realize that was ok until this year. God has come through again and again though. He cuts through the chaos and makes the right thing happen. It's just tough to not know the ending. The lyrics are below. I don't think there is much there that isn't straight forward and just saying clearly what I mean but hopefully this background gives you a better (though definitely not complete) picture of where this is coming from. By the way is a low quality video upload. The mp3 is much clearer (though still recorded by an amateur). Also the pic at the beginning of the video is from a church rooftop in Argentina. If I ever made a real album that would be the cover I'm thinking.


You are the answer
You are my answer
You are the one that I need
You are our answer
You are our king
you are the one that we need

I see the pain, I see the hurt, all around me
We search, we cry, we come short
This life is so unfair
We find, these broken pictures of your love,
but the distance, separating your love from the love that we see,
makes it hurt, tears our hearts, all the more

Where should we look
To whom can we turn

God this life, this confusion, is far beyond me
I give up
I give up
take my life
I won’t have it
I don’t want it anymore
but when the world was without form and void
you brought to order and you can do it again.
I need you I need you
Be my satisfaction

Towards you I will turn
To you My King I will turn

I want to, I need to understand
why God, I don’t see your plan
I cannot, go back on what I know
the pain doesn’t nullify the truth
I will live for you

14

Love it! the patterns of circles keep on going.

light in the middle surrounded by a circle of light.

ellipses at all angles. Sweet colors, nice shadows.

just missing the glossy finish because of low quality picture.

Surprise

Had an adventure on Saturday, and turns out Rochester is partly beautiful. I had wanted to go longboarding through NYC but why live where you're not? Why not enjoy the present time and place? It may be surprising. My point and shoot camera doesn't focus well far away or while boarding... but you get the idea.

Reflections II

obnoxious orange shoes are great