Thursday, August 26, 2010

A Delightful Morn.

So I don't really like it when the raindrops on the mirror render it useless for anything but a blinding machine, but it's a side effect of the beauty below that so it's ok. The second picture I caught walking across my yard to my car to go to work. Fog is such a weird thing.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Bad Shoes II

Joel saw my previous blog entry and made me buy the shoes... the ones in the last picture were 9.5... here is Joel's size 15 next to my size 9.5 boat shoes. Joel, I anticipate you wearing these with a kind of fascinated dread.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Grandma's Looking out for Me

So my grandma was out sitting on the porch for a while in her wheel chair. My mom went out to check on her, "How are you doing?"
"-How to get Ryan cereal..." Grandma replied (yes that seemed rather random but mom knows her mom pretty well and after a pause caught on).
"While he's in Germany?" mom asked.

"Yes, while he's in Germany" she confirmed.

Grandma is great. I'm glad she's thinking of these things ahead of time =)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Bad Shoes I

So I've been doing a good bit of shoe shopping and having quite the time at it. I need brown dress shoes to match my suit... anyways, obviously name brand quality stuff is expensive, but you would think that off brands would be able to produce lower quality but good looking shoes. Unfortunately that's not the case. Cheap shoes are cheap because the people designing them have no idea what their doing. These shoes were on sale for $15 because they are black and white fake crocodile skin! Who would actually buy that wanting to look good/dressed up? Knowing what I know now about how long and tedious the design process is from experience this summer, how did these make it to the shelf without 1 person stopping and pointing out the hideousness?
- ok I'm done -

Thursday, August 12, 2010

¿What's Your Favorite Kind of Music?

So I'm not usually good at questions about favorites with very few exceptions (favorite color? - Green). Anyways, for how much I like music, I realized how poorly I can categorize what I like.

For a while I thought I liked music that I would love to be able to play (I like a lot of acoustic guitar music), but then I realized it's the other way around. I love to learn to play music that I appreciate, so I'm back to starts on what I like.

So I realized as to style it's this. I love when music could be played by one person in a field, or a group of friends sitting around a fire. Maybe the album adds more but the essence of the song can be fully captured in that simple arrangement and setting, because that perfect screaming guitar solo, or that blazing kick drum doesn't really make a song good, they are just signs of gifted musicians, not gifted artists. The appreciation of the simple is in large because what I appreciate in content.

In the content there has to be something about the song that catches my attention. The words should have a real connection to the ponderings of the artist. Ideally it's either something I've been thinking about, or it challenges me to think about.
Secondly, I like when songs paint a picture and use the music and the lyrics together to make you feel just what it's showing you.

Look at these lyrics in Cannons by Phil Wickham:

The chorus goes like this:

Singing you are holy, great and mighty,
the moon and the starts declare who you are.
I'm so unworthy, but still you love me,
Forever my heart will sing of how great you are.

Definitely true and good, but also very cliché. Ordinarily this would bore me (unless God had just been speaking to me about my unworthiness or something of the like, suddenly making the song personal). What Phil does though that makes me appreciate the song is he paints a picture through the verse that leads into the chorus and makes it many times more powerful. Here it is:
(verse 2, though verse 1 is good too)
Beautiful and free, the song of galaxies,
Reaching far beyond the Milky Way.
Let's join in with the sound,
Come on, Let's sing it out,
As the music of the universe plays

and then continue up to the chorus.
...Find the song here.
That's cool, thats what I like. It's so much bigger. I can visualize a symphonic roar filling the galaxy, all excited about God. The illustration is verse 1 is beautiful as well. There are so many songs especially on Christian radio in particular that speak vague truth in a vague impersonal way. It's like they thought of a tune they liked and had to fill it with some words. Art shouldn't be about being catchy, it's about expressing.

Now I just need to find more music that fits. Feel free to recommend. I'm bad at searching out music. (and these posts are getting long)


Sunday, August 8, 2010

Amazing Worship -::- Amazing Music

What's the difference?
The first is clearly more "spiritual" than the latter, but what does that genuine spiritual experience look like in our lives, especially when everything we experience gets filtered through our physical bodies. Also, to clarify I'm using a very narrow definition of worship here, referring to praising God through song whether it be as a church or individually. Worship entails significantly more than that but that was the aspect of worship providing the confusion for me.

There have been plenty of times I can point to in the past 10 years where as worship concluded I had this feeling that worship was awesome, but then I realized that that "awesome worship" feeling came at times when I just heard music I loved and the mix was perfect and the mood was set just right. Not that worship can't happen in those places, but I began to wonder if my worship experience was really just manipulating my mind and emotions through music, a beautiful tool that ties so closely into our hearts that it carries a lot of power, regardless of "spiritual" content.

The last few months have been a battle to get to the bottom of this. How do I know when I'm enjoying God's presence or deep and worship versus just enjoying an awesome groove??? As soon as a that uncertainty in my worship surfaced my worship dried up, and I could hardly participate in worship or music at all.
Frustrating to not know the difference between God and music. Were all those times just resting in the presence of God, really just times of being massaged by a rhythm that hit the spot?

So here's what I'm thinking. Worship can manifest in any time, any place, and can be expressed through so many mediums. One of the most awesome settings is in a community of people who have devoted all they are to Jesus Christ. So we gather and use music, as a powerful mode of expression to worship our Lord. A great idea in principle but here's where I started messing it up.

I roll in Sunday morning and I "arrive at worship," or I pull out my guitar to do a worship song. As I waltz into that worship setting I enjoy some music and then it's done and I wonder if I really encountered God or not. Now here's what needs to change.

I need to go through my days recognizing God everywhere. There are times when I see him inspire people to awesome things. There are times when he opens up opportunities for me to represent him clearly. He gives revelations of how good he is, and how he's blessed me. I need to think on those things, to dwell on those things, and to let those things build up. When the goodness of God begins to overwhelm me (which should really happen on a much more regular basis), I can use music, in my room or corporately, to express that joy, and that passion, and that thanksgiving. The music just becomes the best medium for expressing the emotions within, and not a medium for attempting to manipulate them into feeling like God is good. God makes himself good. The music doesn't do that. Music just happens because God IS Good.